close the book now.

i don't care what anyone says. rj's latin dancers are the best around (: the most darling ppl i know. and i won't swap you guys for any other dancers no matter how pro they are. you guys held on with me despite my tempers and tears. my scoldings and rants. i don't know how to say this, but its like within each dance, we shared something that other ppl wouldn't know. wouldn't be able to understand. as angie said 'what matters most is that you give ppl a chance'. i'm glad i did. thanks guys (: for everything.

i love love love you krist babee. (: i nearly started crying after reading ur entry. being the sentimental fool i am :p haha. my nearly twin. heh.

went out with my mummy today. it was nice (:

i don't want to move on. i seem incapable of moving on. i'm just languishing in the memories of dance night. i never want to let go. but i know i can't live in the past forever. gah.

i'm closing a huge chapter of my life.

and opening a new one without you. because you closed yours on me. its your choice. and i respect it. i think i finally can grasp that its all over.

to you and to those who wondered where the section of the latin ballroom synopsis came from:

its all coming back to me now - celine dion

There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside the window

There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever

I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made

But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow
Baby Baby

If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
And it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
But it's all coming back

There were those empty threats and hollow lies
And whenever you tried to hurt me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper

There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last we'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever

But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then

But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow
Baby, Baby, Baby

When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now

If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
We see just what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now

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